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2009-05-10T02:09:00.003+08:00

this shall be the last time im gonna update this blog.
im no longer blogging anymore in the meantine.
thanks to all my faithful readers!
hehehe

insyallah if im gonna be blogging will keep u update ok.
toodles!

2008-12-10T03:58:00.006+08:00

ok, so lately ive been hanging out with my girlfriends and also this group of guys.
kai, luqman & shafiq.
so yeah.
just came back hm from lepaking with them at telepark.
thks shafiq though for sending me back.

aaaaaaah tired of work.
i wanna work at diff place now.

2008-11-08T02:46:00.000+08:00

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Go in, come in
Thought I heard a knock
Who’s there? no one
Thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn’t know
You didn’t notice, you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning, to love again
All I know is, I’m gonna be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

How could i turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming
Don’t wanna let, hurt my feelings

But thats the path, i believe in
And I know that, time will heal it
You didn’t notice, you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning, to love again
All I know is, I’m gonna be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause i deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

2008-10-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

this just keeps getting worser and worser
and being a choice is a vert bad thing.
sigh..

lately ive been losing my apetite
smoke like half a box for the day everyday
crying everytime even whem im out in public
i know its bad for me
but what else can i do to overcome all these?
despite all these,
friends have been there for me.
they listen and gave me such advice fr this.
lucky for me they are there
if not i will be in a total state of loss and confusion
fuck.. even while im typing all this tears are rolling down to my cheeks
i hate being in this kinda state
its like im emotionally unstable
for a minute, im able to laugh and another min, i would cry

i just dont understand why i seems to get the worst at the end of every r/s
im tired
im too tired of giving my all to the other party and ended up tearing in the receieving end.
its just not worth it
what ever had gone wrong in this?
i tried my every best to be the best i could

now i guess im giving up on love
guys... they are such a complicated creature

goodnight people.

Kesalahan kau pahutkan dijiwaku
Kau nampakkan keangkuhanmu
Diri ini tak kau hargai

2008-10-29T08:33:00.006+08:00

its like a shattered dreams
all that ive ever thought of had already becoming just one of my fantasy
i cant believe throughout all these while, all of this had gone down the drain.
sleepless nights, teary eyes
sobbing and crying
i know it wont gets me anywhere
this wont help me
finally the truth has revealed itself for me

i cant seem to find the reasons why you love hurting me this way
i treat you like every man wanted to be treated as
never in anyway have i ever tried to make you down
yet it seems to be unsatisfaction for you
you wanted something else
something that i just cant provide it for you
and thats why you went in search for another soul
someone who can make you feel more satisfactory
you never knew how much this is hurting me
and its hurting me to know the fact everything is over for us.
no, its just too soon.
i cant let this be happening
i still need you, love
all that is happening to me is just too soon and unbelievable
you're the best damn thing that has ever happened to me baby
i miss my love...
pls dont let me go,
pls dont...

I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You taking my love for granted, babe.
I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
and lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.

2008-10-23T23:25:00.005+08:00

abg-abg sapau

went out with fyza in the day
then bumped into syuk & huda
and we ended up playing silly game in the arcade
-_________-

after that went lepaking with the boys
faris, aki, and faris's older brother
bumped into Imran btw
and this is the last day im meeting faris
tmr hes gonna booked in camp
cedebah
=D

2008-10-22T21:36:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was hell
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you ..

2008-10-14T03:41:00.008+08:00

last sunday, went to Salleh, my Ex-mgr's open house.
there i met all the people i havent been meeting up for quite awhile.
aswan & along makin jambu siak!
hehe.

after that, went bck to tamp.
its been awhile since i last met him since he just came back from Reservist
we've got like so much stuff to talk & discuss and shared with ever since
so supper with shahrin and slacked until the wee hours, then off he send me.

cause you're hot then you're cold,
you're yes then you're no
we fight we break up,
we kiss we make up.

Gym Class Heroes feat. The Dream - Cookie Jar.mp3 -

2008-10-09T03:47:00.004+08:00

firstly, Happy 19th Birthday Ain.
i hope this will be the best birthday u ever celebrated in like 19 years?
eheh.
"mudah-mudahan panjang umur, murah rezki"

secondly, congrats on Kinny baby for finally saving up to get her Baby Burger.
one day u must intro me to your burger ok?(=

sorry for the late late updates.
i havent been online-ing for kinda long.
its because comp is stuck in my room, tk terpasang-pasang.
and now i have to use sis's laptop to use the net.
urghhhhhhhhhhh!

anyway,
so much of things have been going on in my life.
yes, some people come & go
and ive meet up with new & interesting people despite all of the downs.
and ive learn alot through all these times
and i even learn how to skate!
weeeeeeeee :D

& i STILL WANT A BIKE!

aah ok
will update more soon
till then,

lovelove!

2008-09-27T01:22:00.010+08:00

3 more days left to Raya.
ramadhan is ending soon.
im not looking forward to this year's Syawal.
its just, no mood to celebrate
thought i knw my family are too excited,
like EXTRA excited this year.

ive admit, i did some bad stuffs right during this holy month
but im trying my best to do some good deeds too
and i promised i will try to cut down on uneccessary stuffs
hey, im no perfect human.
everyone does make a mistake
its only in the matter wether they themselves realised wether it is bad or not.
and yes i did realised it.
however its too late to regret though.
so yeah hows Ramadhan to every one of you?
i hope all of us had make use of it as much as possible.
so yeah, on last sat, i spent the night Qiamulai at Taqwa.
its been a fun place to be.
whoever says masjid aint fun?
we had alot of experience there.
and my phone even became mischievious till it drops down at the Jamban!

like a certain friend of mine says,
we have to cherish this month by
reading Qurans, praying Qiam, doa, just do whatever as much as possible
because we never know wether we get to meet the next Ramadhan.

oh well,
hopefully we'll get to meet the next Ramadhan,
till then,
heres a very tempting desert ive tried before.
it looks nice & delicious kan kan?!

God bless you.
(=

2008-09-24T01:11:00.006+08:00

i received a forward msg from Shahrin and i sent it to a few of my frens, although some of them never replied me. GRRRR!
but thanks to those who replied me.
i got diff answers for the same qns.
and some of the ans are very funny shit.

1) What is Best about me?
- focused.
-uh i dont know.maybe the fact that youre not a bad girl haha.easy to joke, kid, talk, play(?)
-clubbing & smoking khaki
-your always & the best.
-blurness.haha
-senang ajak bebual.
-always maintain even though something wrong.
-easy-going.

2)What is Bad about me?
- quick-tempered.
-everything and anything that is not good.haha.hey virginity and sober rock! =D
-everything
-kau minahrip tkleh ang.& kau slalu tkder expression.
-blurness.hahah!
-your motoring skill sucks..hahah
-no idea.(tk pernah npk.... :) )
-lazy huh?hah.

3) What is My name is your hp?
- Jessica Alba :D
-khai nurul
-tourist
-nisa nunu nurul
-nunu
-khairunnisa (amirah sis)
-nurul ITE (terlalu bnyk nurul kenal..hehe)
-nurul khai

4)I am your....?
- ur my everything. (:
-friend
-bitch
-bestie
-best beautiful seafriend.wooohooo! ;)
-frens's kakak..fren jugak ah tu.
-good friend ever met
-friend

5)I am just like a?
-sugar in my coffee
-shadow puppet haha
-bitch cum scandal
-shining star.cedebah
-a cute round sotong.haha!!
-normal human being.
-passionate person who wants to achieve her dreams
-friend again

6)What would you wish for me?
-wish you get your dream bike.
-what do u wanta me to wish for, seriously =P
-turn into a hardcore lesbian!! WOOOO!
-get a bf quick2!harap2 ngn ditu lah eh.
-to get ur bike soon so i can tompang!!hehe!!
-pass lesen moto
-all the happiness & needs u need
-bright future

ANYWAY, ANYWAY!
i cant help but feel the "aweee" whenever i watch the Aladdin movie which has always been my favourite fairytale movie.

Forget about that guy
Forget about the way you fell into his eyes
Forget about his charms
Forget about the way he held you in his arms
Walking on air's obnoxious
The thrill
The chill
Will make you nauseous
And you'll never get enough
Just forget about love

alalala
sweeet kan! sweet kan!
:D :D

2008-09-22T14:36:00.008+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Nadirah.
so we sec sch girls,
normal & express girls went out to celebrate Nad's birthday.
bowling & buka-ing & chitchatting the whole night.
aaah.im loving my girlfriends :D :D

2008-09-20T00:16:00.006+08:00

start of the day,
aki came over to my place.
buat ape?
stakat main comp kat depan muka aku.
kan tk betol dier?!
HAHAHA

and we had an enjoyable time double dating.
bby & me, nazirul & ain.
watch disaster movie,
at first all 3 came bloody late.
i reached tamp at 4pm, but one by one came at 4.45-5.00pm.
darah aku upp jer!
lucky satu satu tau pujok aku.
klau tak, siap ah diorg.

after that debate where to eat for buka,
and then all of decided to go macd.
well, actually not all.
just Ain who mati-mati wants to go there.
HAHA.
after buka, shahrin suggest to go play bowling at ehub
by the time we reached there, its was so bloody pack.
baik perr?!
we made a reservation but by 11pm our reservation had not been called out yet, so in the end we just went off.
kiwaaaaaak.
from 8.30 to 11pm we're like waiting hainging around there mcm what sia.
and in the end smuer plan tk jadi.
baik perr?

so bby and me went back to tamp,
while ain went home
and nazirul went off to meet his frens.

overall it turns out great though satu satu macam fuckercheebye.
heh!

2008-09-18T02:22:00.002+08:00

to my dear dear baby kinny,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, my gyming bitch!
i love you so much for being there for me & listening to all my craps & jokes.
u know i know what we've been crapping about.
though we just knew each other within 1yr, uve been the best girlfriend i can ever have.
i love love love you so so so much baby!

let meet up sooooon!
:D :D

2008-09-15T01:31:00.005+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO AN & FARIS!(((:
which happen to be on the 14th.
so sorry, im wishing you late, but at least i did text and call u guys!
hehehe.

enjoy yr birthday dudeeeeeeeee!

&& today,
went out & buka with Huda,
after that Bazaaaar with my Bitches! :D

2008-09-14T01:37:00.008+08:00

4BIA with Shahrin then buka puase.
and people, pls dont ever ever watch that movie.
it sucks.
merepek to the max!

iloveyoursmell....

2008-09-13T02:34:00.014+08:00

went to the tcc chalet which is only organised by US, departure clan.
its Joanna's, Alison's birthday and Bernard's farewell as he's leaving the place on 14th.
ahh well, enjoyed most of the times, except the fact that ive got into a small fight with Shahrin after that.
but all is well now.
im soo sorry bby! =X

AHHHHHHH, IMY very much.

2008-09-10T00:20:00.003+08:00

i want a bike
i want bike sooo badlyyyyyyyy
hurhurrrrrrr

oh to anyone whom i ddnt tell my news to,
I'VE PASSED MY TEST, PEOPLE!

thank you, fr those who have been encouraging me frm the start.

now my only prob is, im short of money.
i dnt even have money to buy my license
so yeah i let the license left there.
i wann bike laaaa!
anyone can sponsor me?
i'd be very grateful! :D

2008-09-06T01:47:00.004+08:00

Happy Happy Happy 19th Birthday Bestie Best Best!!
kau la punat ku, kau la segalanya.
HeHeHe :D

lets go out & celebrate soon ok!
muacks muacks.
*Ive just french-kissed you!* :D

2008-09-04T00:03:00.003+08:00

a very BIG shoutout to my dearest boy-friend,
HAPPY 20th Birthday Syazani!!
da jadi abg-abg eh!
hope you enjoy your birthday Dude.

*WIDE GRINS*
:D :D

2008-09-02T14:05:00.006+08:00

tuesday, 2nd day of puasa.
Ramadan Mubarak((:

2nd Sept, the 9mth death anniversary of Birdie.
hopefully she's happily above.

anywy, i was looking back through my older entries
oh how i miss my friends whom ive not been meeting.
esp my bestest boyfriends.
we've been drifting apart lately,
yes ive noticed that
but it doesnt mean ive forgotten all about you.
ive always rmb u.
like ive always said, "Not any of the guys whom i love, can ever replaced the both of you. You guys have a very special place in my heart."
and im still sticking true to my words.
imissyou guys.
jom kiter jmpe soon :(

WAHHHHH Nurul so emoshit sia.

2008-09-01T10:11:00.012+08:00

sentosa outing with the adored one and his friends.
i ddnt manage to take lots of pics, but mainly its all the adored one whom i took.
then we went eating at Newton.
after that some private time with the adored one. ((:

i happened to bumped into them too!
syg korangg! :D

i miss him, oh so much.

2008-08-27T01:29:00.010+08:00

helloo people.
sorry for the long long awaiting of updates.
oh well, life is very unexpecting for me
it will be totally down in one moment,
and the next moment i find myself moving up rapidly again.
how cool huh?
anyway, its still unexpecting for me now.
banyak cabaran nyer.
but currently my life is sailing very well.
hopefully it will maintain like that.
or maybe improve.
oh well, i dont think u people get that.
soon i will explain.
insyallah.

thank you god, thank you.

2008-08-17T23:32:00.004+08:00

PESENTING TO YOU : MY BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

NIKON DSLR D40

i helped my uncle to take photos of the people during their Kenduri by using this cam bought by him.
oh mannn, im sooo in love with it.
uncle says my shots are very professional
*ahem*
and guess what?
it cost around $3000++.
im gonna work hard hard, and buy this cammy!

2008-08-16T00:46:00.007+08:00

went out to coffeclub for an intervw over there,
& i saw my Dada working there
after that,
i met this Matrep for short while.
its been more than 3mths since the last time i saw him.
now that he's already into camp already
we didnt get a chance to meet.
da makin gelap dikni.

stupid ridwan.
he say i gain alot of weight
maybe i should go gym & diet more!
& he say i look _______ & he calls me a Punat!
how dare he!
i mean, nobody can use that word to hit me,
but only i can use THAT WORD!
HMMMPH!

2008-08-12T23:33:00.004+08:00

a friend of mine had just got into an accident.
although its just a minor one, but still the van hit him!
damn the van!
and ive always thought Wan is the most safest rider to ride with.
now i know, no matter how safe you try,
if the other vehicle is careless, you will get into accident too.
anyway, take good good care hor Redzuan!

aiya.why lately ive been hearing about ppl getting into accidents?!
no wonder tester dunwan to pass me.
cause my uncle from cdc say i like to speed speed speeed.
NYEH!

2008-08-12T00:49:00.005+08:00

Name: Hidayat Taufik
Gender: Male
Nationality: Indonesia
Birth Date: 10 August 1981
Weight: 64kg
Height: 176cm

WAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
i was randomly watching the Olymipics Badminton game when i suddenly saw him.
wahhhhhh!
HOT SIA HOT!
can i have him as my future hubby no.2? (besides Cristiano Ronaldo.)

:D

anyway,
huda & me were talking on the phone last night,
huda: aku kejot kan kau kol9 eh. kau jgn tk bangun eh kau.
nurul: ah ok.ko pon jgn tido alek lepas kejot aku.
huda: tak akan punyer la.
she was like so confident that we both can wake up early in the morning.
and then today when i woke up, i received ZERO calls from her.
nyeh!

this is a real example of janji melayu habis!
hua hua.tsk!

2008-08-07T01:03:00.002+08:00

It was so easy that night
Should’ve been strong
Yeah I lied
Nobody gets me like you

Couldn't keep hold of you then
how could I know what you meant
there was nothing to compare too

I know everything changes
All the cities and faces
But I know how I feel
About you

Theres a mountain between us
But there's one thing i'm sure of
That I know how I feel
About you

Can we bring yesterday
Back around
Cause I know how I feel
About you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel
About you now

All that it takes
One more chance
Don't let our last kiss
Be our last
Give me tonight and I'll show you

I know everything changes
I don't care where it takes us
Cause I know how I feel
About you

Can we bring yesterday
Back around
Cause I know how I feel
About you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel
about you now

Not a day passed me by(x2)
When I don't think about you
And there's no moving on
Cause I know you're the one
And I can't be without you

Can we bring yesterday
Back around
Cause I know how I feel
About you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel
about you now (x2)

But I know how I feel about you now
Yeah I know how I feel about you now

2008-08-05T11:26:00.002+08:00

weekends is totally awesome.
went ton-ing for 2days straight till dad mengamok.
nyeahahhahaa.

so first day, we just slacked ard my block till 5-6am.
after that, went home.
meet ain during evening and went down to expo.
i saw anwar working there.
went to airport and saw Faz there.
then, went we went to had supper at Popeye.
Aki & frens came down,
so we went riding ard east area.
i kept changing diff riders so as to get more 'experience'.
HEH.
after that, we had our early bfast at changi, NASI LEMAK!
niceeeee.

:D :D

okay ppl, I NEED A JOB!
BOO HOO//

2008-07-31T00:16:00.003+08:00

went lepaking with the brotherlurps again today.
we'll go star-gazing again ok korangs? :D

2008-07-27T03:13:00.019+08:00

im dead tired right now, but since im still chatting with _______,
so i make a time to update my blog for today.

meet up with Ain & Angel darling for today.
went to Bras Basah in search of my books & after that had lunch at Mcd.
then off we went to Woodlands to catch a gig at RP.
& i gotta tell you, i really enjoy this one.
although its not as kecoh as the other time.
DAMN! the lead singer, Chris who's from one of the band is SUPER HOT la.

we met up with Zuee who's already at there.
after the moshing & stuffs, went to BK.
then after chilling ard got back to tamp by the last Bus, 168.
PHEW, LUCKY! :D

2008-07-20T18:51:00.007+08:00

yesterday,
went to Syukur's sis Engagement Party.
its been a long time since i met all of them
awwwwww. rindu la sangat!
after that, went down to bedok interchge and bumped into Bazly.
turns out Bazly & i are both going down to Lido so yea we took the same MRT.
after that, met up with my ITE punats after they had watched their movie.
walked around then off they went.
Met Z at a gig at Scape.
sorry, i cant reveal his name cause he's very well-known.
i bet almost the whole teens of spore know him.hahahahaa!
so yeah,
sorry Z, i ddint get a chance to spend more time with you.
we'll go out soon again yea?

oh well, here's some pics i took at the engagement party.

& i Suddenly think about my Birdie.
i miss Birdie.
hurhur =(

2008-07-17T01:38:00.022+08:00

hello readers!
you miss me?
i know you do!
HeHeHeHe tk tau malu nyer aku:D

well im here to blog abt tonight.
went sheesha-ing with my girls.
we were supposed to meet early in the afternn at Aza's hs but i buay so yah,
we meet later in the evening.
enjoy the nonsense pics!

so on sunday, i went vivo wit Said the whole day.
we slacked, shopping, watch movie, everything we do under the sun.
thanks eh for acc me(=
sayaaang lu!

on sat,
went out with Dyra to Ubi and watched her taking prac.
after that went downtown to had our lunch at Arnolds,
then oc watch Deception.
after the show, we went airport to meet Ain to had dinner with her.
Dyra went back around 11pm, while me & ain stayed and hang around till 5am which by then i had to go home to get some rest.

FUCKKKK.
I SERIOUSLY NEED TO START REVISING RIGHT NOW.
SOMEONE FORCED ME CAN?!

2008-07-09T12:07:00.035+08:00
thanks Aini for the late night talks for this past few days.
i appreciate it(=
& u cheer up too ok sweets?
hopefully things will get better.

anyway, ive reched hm frm melaka last weekend.
my cousin from there got married.
it was a fun trip, but its super hotttttt!
& oh, did i tell you we got into a car accident?
but thank god nobody is injured except that our car is damaged at the side.
stupid chinese driver!

ok here are all the pics of me& relatives.

this look like my Birdie!!

pretty eh she?

2008-07-07T21:06:00.002+08:00
finding a tuition is so hard,
and why is it every one of my friends are missing when i needed them??

2008-07-04T02:58:00.006+08:00
so just now i had my Malay Oral.
wah.
i super nervous i think.
i keep forgetting to translate what i said from Eng to Mly
die la die.
& aft that i metup with dada to had lunch!

after work,
another night spent with Bernard,
this time with another friend, Vann.
Vann is super cute lor.
we had drinks then went to Boat QUay to get super late supper
NASI LEMAK!
=D

ok, i just reached home and im super sleepyyyyyyyy!

2008-07-03T08:35:00.006+08:00
so ydae, i bumped into Dyra at Queenstown St.
ok u guys must be wondering what the hell im doing at there right.
first, i met Aki before that to had a lunch.
then he went off so i went to work.
otw, i realised im coming there way to fast so i slept at the mrt all the way to Queenstown.
that where i bumped into her.
and the first thing she ask me was "are u contacting with my Ex?"
i nearly wanna laugh cus for me i dont even bother to be serious with her Ex la.
dont worry ok dyra.
you're my friend.
of course i wont take your 'bekas'. heh.
so after that, went off to work.
then after work, Bernard keeps wanting to drink
at first i was reluctant
but he forced me out so i had no other choice but to follow him
-.-"
so yea, here are the pics.
we had our drinks at Clarke QUay.
oh btw, i keep spilling drinks all over.
wah i very clumsy suddenly le.
=/
after that cabbed home
otw hm, me & Bernard is kinda hungry, so we had supper at ECP MACD.
wah.
i now tired liao.
guess thats all i can blog for now.

sorry hor this pic so blur!

2008-06-30T15:55:00.005+08:00
& SPAIN WINS THE EURO 2008!

yessssaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
im such a HAPPY GIRL!

fernando torres really did a good job into scoring the golden goal.
and of course, my DAVID SILVA is still the BEST!
=D

2008-06-27T03:55:00.010+08:00

this is Ayu, my Hot Stuff.

im already drunk right now.
seriously.
i cant type properly now.
and i have to edit my typing over & over again.
so yeah there it is.
FYI, i make out with some of the butch out there.
i think the name is Andy/Andie ?

pictures uploaded.

& i think im in love with that Girl..............she's soo hot.

BTW, In case you guys are wondering,
IM STRAIGHT ok!
i prefer the opposite sex much!
=D

2008-06-25T17:13:00.004+08:00

i can't seem to find the right words right now to tell you all what i'm feeling right now.
that would be a great help to me.
in actual fact, i cant seem to find myself.
im in a losing situation.
i think i need to do some soul-searching on myself.
i have been doing useless stuffs lately.
and it affects me every time.
sigh,
i am confused.
im so out of my mind lately.
but it's alright.
everything will be fine soon.
insyallah

anyway, good bye readers.

To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

2008-06-23T04:31:00.010+08:00
so yeah, im currently watching Spain Vs Italy.
there's no vibe there.
its already past extra time but yet both are like 0-0
come on spain.
u can do it.
dont let the underdogs win.
don't put me down.
im betting on ya.
don't make me disappointed like how Portugal does.

David Silva is Hot.

Fernando Torres is Gorgeous.

David Villa is Adorable.

Cesc Fabregas is Cute.

*droooooolings*
now you guys know why Spain is my 2nd Best Team?

i still cant stop thinking about that particular someone./

2008-06-20T15:13:00.017+08:00

half-tipsy.

i went out during the day to meet up with Fyza.
after that, Aki send me off to work.
but we lost somewhere around clarke quay.
HAHAHA.
then after work, i went to Play's to support Aza for her competition.
& Happy 19th Birthday Baby! :D :D
im glad you got into the Semifinals.
be drunk more ok! :D
And Ayu, Lala's friend was hot la.
so yes, she make a move to dance with me
but she's very drunk till she gets kinda dirty
but still, she looks hot. (: (:
sorry, i couldnt snap a pic of her.

so yeah. i jst woke up now,
just to hear a stupid msg from Anwar that Portugal is already out of Euro
damn!
whatever eh.
i still have my spain to carry on.
GO GO GO!

somehow this song is stuck in my head throughout the night.
cause that clubbergirl Ayu is hot!

2008-06-18T22:30:00.006+08:00

im supposed to be studying today, but plan was cancelled so i met up with Redzuan instead.
and yeah, we went for a mini-shopping.
oh yeah, otw riding at the expressway,
we nearly gotten ourselves hit by the kerb
thanks to Redzuan who mati-mati wants to speed despite the wet weather.
hahahah!!
& Wan! i love that sweater la. boleh tk? *winkwink*
HAHAHA!

so after that, went dinner with Kinnyyy baby.
then meetup with Aki.
we went to MNG.
omg! i soo wanna shopping again.
sales sales sales!

2008-06-17T03:51:00.003+08:00
since you want it to be that way, then i have nothing to say.
ive cried hard enough to let out everything
at least now, i know that we both understands what actually has been on each other's mind.
i didnt realised you're a veri important person in my life.
true enough, you are.
but sadly, im nothing compared to others for you.
but its okay.
aku faham kau buat nie smuer untuk matair kau.
aku tk pasal. serious.
kau nak aku treat kau as a normal fren kan?
isnt how i treat u enough to show that im already over you & you're a normal fren for me?
tapi tkper.
since kau betol2 nak gitu,
aku boleh prove kan kau.

k bye.

2008-06-16T00:05:00.007+08:00

so today we spent the whole day together at vivo.
watch Kungfu Panda, its super funny, i tell you!
& halfway during movie i feel like peeing.
but i tahan & tahan until i really cant tahan and i just went
and i miss the best part of the movie where the turtle die!
grrrrrr.

so yeah, basically thats all about my weekend.

Tomorrow is my first day for another new job.
wah.i super anxious le.

2008-06-14T22:52:00.012+08:00

so i went shopping today with my cuzzie, Yati,
seriously, i think i spend too much.
& most of it are _____________.
we had dinner at BaliThai Restaurant after that.
its nicee & yummy.
should try it ya'll,
im sooo full i can barely walk around.

and yeah, after that,
camwhoring session.
and thats the main reason u can see my bulging tummy.
wah.i want gym le!

2008-06-14T00:31:00.011+08:00

today is friday the 13th.
very nice.

i went to Huda's attachment's place today.
we had dinner there.
we had like a 6-course set meal.
desert, main, soups & many i-don't-know what dishes.
and yes, i kinda enjoy myself at there.
saper takk.
but seriously, if im a rich girl
i bet i couldnt even have any of those 'posh' manners like what most of the rich ppl do.
HAHAHA. buat malu org jer aku gi sane.

so, ive alraedy finally quitted my job as an accountant.
YESSSAAA
and tmr im currently free.
supposed to meet Kin and go johor with her,
but since she's going too early,
im afraid i cant make it.
So sorry Baby! :X
& i wanna meet ________ cause i missing him too much.
but he cant make it either.
dier tiber2 jadi kendarat.
ntah aper angin tiber2 dier nak jadi.

-.-"

ok, im tiredd now.
but i still wanna wait for that match.
Holland vs France baby!

2008-06-07T22:22:00.012+08:00

i met up with Dy today as she wants me to buy her home-made cookies.
so yeah, as a very goood friend,
i support and buy it. :D

so we slacked around my place till Aki came over
and watch him doing silly stuffs.
dier pasang bende2 mepek kat motor dier. HAH.
after that, Dy & me went off to bought Nintendo Ds for her gf
and went for dinner.
gosshhh!
i just couldnt stop myself from laughing while eating.
she kept saying abt "ayam kentot" & many silly comments.
after that we walked back to my place and wait till she got on the bus.

Me: i think i just realised something. you've grown taller tau.
Dy: Eh? taklah. sebenarnyer ur the one who's grown shorter not me grow taller.

laugh ah laugh.
aku puji kau baik2, kau kutuk aku.
kiwaaaaaak.

i missing my girlfriend Dy alot alot.

2008-06-05T18:19:00.001+08:00
at times like this,
i feel like giving it up.

this is sooo heart breaking.

2008-06-01T00:23:00.006+08:00

honestly, i dont know what else i should do to make u see through.
maybe the decision ive made is the best that could be for us.
i wont expect anything from u anymore.
its no use either cus i will only get more disappointment in the end.
i tried to hold on to every single thing i can try,
but all i get is disappoinment from you.
although u dont feel how much im feeling for you,
im still feeling my very worst state.
u know how hurting this is.
i know i shouldnt put any high hopes on you.
i was wrong in that.
maybe you're still young to treasure a friendship or relationship,
but someday u will know the true meaning of it//

goodbye.
you knw you will always be my best Zombie partner(=

2008-05-31T22:31:00.005+08:00
Happy 1 year friendship Syazani!!

its actually 1june but i wishing you in advance ok!
HaHa.

i should had took a picture with him just now, but damnit i forget!

____________________________________________________________

and my left arm is in pain right now.
aku terbang mcm supergirl dari motor aku.
power tk!

-.-"

somehow, my heart is sinking lower and lower right now.
goodbye my ____________.

2008-05-28T23:59:00.021+08:00

so went out with the boyfriends just now till almost 12am.
we ate like soo many food sia. HaHaHa!
nasi goreng, chicken-chicken, fries, buns.
i swear im gaining more & more BABATS!
so after we had camwhored, tired,
so we had a heart-to-heart talk.
topic from girls/guys to bikes to studies to sex. HAHA.
after that, da penat, balek.

and ive got another job offered by singtel.
should i take it?

2008-05-27T20:04:00.012+08:00
anyway, work is crappy and as usual BORING.
my boss is funny man.
he's funny as in he didnt know he's funny but the way he talk to me,
even if he's trying t scold me is very funny.

boss: 11.30pm to 1pm. how long is that?
me: 2hours lor. (confident nampak!)
boss: 2 hrs ah? i send you back to primary school then u know!

i burst laughing with that irritating high pitch voice.
and he just walked away.
marah nampak! marah nampak! HAHA!

so during lunch, im craving for Durians.
since im working at Aljunied, there is like so many Durians stalls around the area.
i dragged a colleague to buy a packet of durians and we ate at the staircase.
and now, my throat infection is getting worst!!
padan muka kau Nurull...

speaking of durians,
i miss my granddad from daddy's side & granny from mama's side.
they were the ones who took turn to take care of me when i was young.
im always craving for durians so they bought me one whenever i wanted it

its been 5yrs since grandad's unexpected gone.
few hrs before he was admitted to hosp,
he was being extra gentle with me.
how i wish i could had seen those signs beforehand.

granny is gone for 12yrs.
even though im still a kid,
i rmb she used to take me to pasar
defend me whenever mum scold me,
slps with me every night.
she's the one i turn to when im feeling low.

oh how i miss my childhood days.
now with work putting me very low,
im started to think of them.
LOVE THEM TO DEATH.

It's hard for me to admit, that your still on my mind.
It's hard for me to realize I've been put behind.
It's hard for me to say that I still very much care.
It's hard for me to know you won't always be there
It's hard for me to tell you exactly how I feel.
It's hard for me to notice what it is thats real.
It's hard for me to fall when your not the one catching me
It's hard for me to just say sorry.
It's hard for me to know, you probably won't forget
It's hard for me to feel, all of my regrets.
But most of all it's hard
Knowing that your gone,
the hardest thing im trying to do, is simply moving on.

2008-05-25T20:01:00.006+08:00
Zoo Outing With My Punatss!!

pundek face, haha!

the pics are all nice kan kan?
the photographer?

me! :D

2008-05-25T16:35:00.006+08:00
riding at night was gerek ;D

i met Aki over at my place aft maghrib.
yes, FYI, we had made up.
mcm matair gitukan.hahahah!

so slack had dinner and talk talk till 12am.
aki suggest we go riding to downtown to play pool.
we came there just to find out the place is alrdy closing soon.
sedih!
so went went to airport and look for Huda & Hady who's working at pcc.
met up with them, then had supper at Popeye's.
after chilling at airport, we went off again.

oh, we lost our way at the airport highway,
so instead of going to tamp,
we went to marine parade all the way to bedok!
hahahah.

and after reachg hm, i went to airport again because of some personal stuffs.
and i ton there till morning.
Hady mepek2 bnyk siool.
tkleh angkat.
HaHaHa!

after they finish work, went to had breakfast at the canteen with Dada.
and finally i went back home again! (=

& to ____________,
hearing this song reminds me of you
and i could cry listening to it.
the way you treating me right now,
ive already figure it out myself.
youre so precious to me
and ive never felt like this.
i just want us like how we used to be.
for now, i don't know what more can i ask.

*wahh! Nurul cant wait to get 2B liscence!*

2008-05-22T23:34:00.004+08:00
im currently chatting with redzuan
and he was telling me about his journey on the bus.
and he saw something extreme.
hahaha!!

a malay couple from ITE Simei was doing Blowjob inside the bus.
can u believe it?
wah.
ape nak jadi dgn dunia ni daa?
nak buat pon, tkmo la in public.
HAHAHA!

you pouring hot & cold on me.
what is wrong ?

you confused me.
goodnight.

2008-05-22T13:47:00.010+08:00

i was listening to _________'s MP3 which almost all of the music are English punk rock.
then suddenly this song came out,
and its super catchy and addictive to my ears till i need to replay it over again.
tiber2 ader lagu melayu terselit dlm playlist.
haHaha!
sumpah aku tk pernah dgr lagu ni.

thanks darling for intro me this song.
its super hyper laa. hah.
and last night chat was fun kan kan sygg?
i will make u ____.
u just be patient and see.
gataaaaaal eh !! hahah!! ;D

YESSSAAAAAAA MANU MENANG !!
& my Ronaldo is the hero!

:D :D

2008-05-21T09:28:00.007+08:00
and here i am not working,
ive got 2days MC due to high fever & throat infection.
maybe its due to the weather,
but i seriously think work/friendship stresses me out too.

i had a very bad day ydae.
but i dont think you guys wanna know why.
kan kan?

so after work,
i met with Kin to have dinner at Qiji.
aft that went down to clinic.
kiwaaaak.
degree aku 39.8!
lagik 0.2 da masok 40degree.
hah.
and i think i smoke too much thats why im having throat infection.

and last night i kept waking up.
i slept at diff places.
from the bed room to the living rm to my brother's rm since he's not in.
so now im supposed to be lying at bed also,
but its boring
aku tau. tkleh dudok diam.

oh boringgg la now.
maybe im gonna watch some movies online.

btw, speaking of movies,
went to watch Congkak & what happens in vegas with Huda.
and then we watch Harold &Kumar through online together.
hahaha!
tk betol kan.

and among all 3, i like Harold & Kumar.
COCKMEAT SANDWICH !!
HAHAHA !!

next one: Made of Honor
banyak perr duit aku.

2008-05-18T23:33:00.006+08:00
weekends is an OK for me.

on friday,
we had a last min planning to go town.
met Aza, and cabbed to Town to meet up with Along's friends.
sorry no pics were taken.
slacked at cbtl till 11pm, which by then me & Aza had to go off.

saturday,
was slackng at home the whole day.
im feeling sooo boredd doing nthg at home,
so i ended up doing something which im not supposed to.
hehehehe ;D

then went down to Changi Beach.
met Ain & Izuddin and the three of us went to my family's bbq.
we had asked Hairil along too,
but he has alr made plans to go jogging with his friend at bdk reservoir.
tak betol nyer budak, mlm2 pegi jogging. hahah!

so we played card games such as Bluff, Heart Attack & Taitee together with my other cousins, Razdy & Ismail.
its super hilarious, i tell you!
hahah, esp the part when we playing Bluff and everyone keeps cheating on one another.

then we spent the rest of the time talking nonsense till the next morng.
i went back home with Ain& Din the next morng.

so here i am today,
sleeping like a log.
was supposed to meet Huda but i was slping like a dead person.
sorry dada!

and tomorrow,
was supposed to meet ______,
but he having a family gathering,
so nw i dont hve any plans at all!
sedih!

anybody wanna bring me out for a date?
pleassssssssseeeeeeeeee

2008-05-17T18:48:00.006+08:00
i wanna release my angriness & frustration
which i can blow up like any time now.
but how?
any suggestions?

and damn, i havent even started revising on my studies!

Mama told me what I should know,
Too much candy gonna ride your soul,
If she loves you, let her go,
'cause love only gets you down.

2008-05-15T18:54:00.022+08:00

after getting chased by teachers to come sch everyday,
doing business projects,
assignments,
and getting nagged so as to get awake early
FOR TWO LOOOONG YEARS,
Higher Nitec in Accounting Cert, is finally in our hands!

YESSAAAAA. aku da biz skola!

at first, i felt so heavy not to go for graduation ceremony
because of some shits last night.
but it turns out that grad is FUN!
too bad i forget to take too many pics with most of the graduands.
and there's some i wish i could take but shy la. HAH!
anyway, here are some of it.
& thanks Huda for coming all the way to my sch,
and watch me as i graduated!
syg you! ehehehe.

ini Aaz. ive known this girl exist in sch, but funny, we've never talk to each other, not until today. hahah.

Kartini, beauty therapy.

this is Hafiz, logistic managemnt.

Naz, sports management.

Fyza, the best girlfriend in sch! I Swear i dont know how to survive without her in sch. (=

wang heng, accounting.

classmates.

figure out whos that yourself.

and we satisfy our cravings with Nasi Ayam Thousand Island.
Sedaaaaaaap tau!

and last night was fun!
spend with my girlfriends after working.
its been super duper long time since i met girlfriends.

one is gone,
and ive got the other one! (=
busted sehh Nurul............

2008-05-11T23:17:00.006+08:00
& another suay thing happen.
i lost my whole graduation outfit when shopping with faris & zul just now.

suay ah suay!
sorry dudes, for wasting your whole time all these while.
u teman me all the way everywhere i go and at the end of the day,
i lost everything!
arghh!!
*pulls hair*

i think im alr terjangkit with faris's careless-ness. hah!

i dont care, im soo gonna buy that skirt & shirt again.
its super nice laa! geram nyerr!

2008-05-11T13:58:00.025+08:00
Zoo Outing With My Punatss!!

pundek face, haha!

2008-05-09T19:21:00.009+08:00

jaded. thats what we're feeling right now.

ive been having a bad week this whole time,
yet ________ isnt there for me.
to think abt it, he even says we can meet after work,
but never we do meet up

the fact that i cant wait to see his face,
to confide everything to him,
and burst out every stress that ive kept inside me,
is still within me.
all i need is him to cheer me up.
but he's not.
aku rindu kau, teraamat sngat.

and before things could get any worser,
im like a loner eating my lunch at work alone,
going back to & fro alone,
everything i did is all alone.

my eyes are getting weak now.
im having migraine.
im scared this job is getting too much.
sometimes even when im slping,
i find myself waking up to think abt the job.
i hope it wont lead to mental stress.

im happy parents are supportive of whatever im doing.
they didnt force me even if i wanna quit my current job and cont with the old one.
and it seems easier to let things out with them than last time.
im happier that we're being more communicative,
they even encourage me to pass my Tp asap.
wah, tk pernah2 makbapak aku support pape aku buat.
suker nyer aku :D

half more day & im getting my off day soon.
thats what im waiting for.
wah lamer nyer.
sabar ajer nurul.

jom kwn2 jumpe aku nanti!
aku rindu korg.

2008-05-05T19:40:00.008+08:00

went out with the motor geng last night.
kecho beb.
aku sampai bangun lambat gi keje.

oh btw, i dont think i will be happy in my new job.
i will be working 9-5 every weekday
and i dont even have any time for him. =(
but ______ is so sweet.
he says, we can always meet up after my work.
he wants me to continue on with my work
no matter how hard it is.
im glad at least someone is there to motivate me & listens to me
but im scared i will be very tired after work.
im not feeling too well now.
its all because of my new job.

i need ________ here
im missing him too much now. HURHUR.

It will all get better in time....
*Insyallah.*

2008-05-03T12:47:00.005+08:00
Dear An,
i know you're in a very very bad situation right now.
but whatever it is, im your friend.
im still here for you.
i care for you alot,
and i don't ever wish for u to be unhappy.
i respect it if you want to be alone.
but you can still count on me for everything u need.
i love you dearest.
& im sorry i dont mean to interfere.
just take good care of yourself.

When I see your smile
tears roll down my face
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know ill find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's ok. it's ok. it's ok.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my
you're my
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away.

Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know ill be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

2008-05-01T21:49:00.020+08:00

firstly, had a small gathering with the CT2 peeps.
except some like NJ &Caca couldnt make it.
i miss those people alot.

secondly,
Happy birthday Izwan.:D :D
da besar eh dier!

so, we went East Coast to celebrate his birthday.
spend the whole night there till morning.
i came back home with so many bruises due to insects bite when im sleeping
and back pain due to the rough land!

hope u had an unforgettable brithday Izwan!(=

wah wah. im so sick of Macdonalds!

2008-04-30T12:51:00.006+08:00

anyway, my best dude chopped off his hair already.
thats his intention aft passing 2b.
da takleh main2 ngn rambot dier lagik.
-_______-

lain kali potong J.I ah.
da jadi abg2 fierce bawak YBR.
ehehehe. :D

suay suay suay.
bad lucks each time.

2008-04-28T23:47:00.014+08:00

went out to so-called study with Anwar.
macam paham.
in the end we're like 10% studying and 90% doing other stuffs. ehehehhe.

he looks cute here kan kan?
mcm budak kecik taktau minom air betol2.

thats definitely not my hand. i dont maki beb.

& this is MY FAVOURITE :D

k. aku da penat.
bye.

im starting to miss __________ already. (:

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
I'm still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
Don't know what to do
I'm stuck on you

2008-04-24T16:34:00.003+08:00

i know, only idiots do what i did during my TP.
sudah ah.
aku benci, aku benci!

2008-04-23T23:10:00.001+08:00
stomachs having butterflies,
heart beat thumping hard,
legs shaking furiously,
sweating like hell.

aku takot la.
k bye

2008-04-23T00:49:00.010+08:00

gayboy baru naik.

ju-on tk menjadi.

i love messy-ing his hair!

muker.. SAPP

for today, went out with the boyfriends during the whole day till evening.
at first we intend to lepak only but ended up going ktv. HAH!
so this is the few pics i can upload
as blogger is being a fuckercheebyeee right now

so after that, went to have dinner with my family.
oh yes, my little brother's birthday is tomorrow.
si manje tuu.
ok, Happy 9th birthday darlingg! :D

and as for that work prob.
i dont know why it has to crop up like now.
few days before my TP!
it really changing my mood currently.

i just dont feel like talking to anyone.
and for fuck sake, i dont bother much abt TP now.
fuck la.
fail pn fail la eh.
nak buat ape.

bodoh!

ok, im starting to get into my cranky moods back.
-_______________-

2008-04-20T23:52:00.006+08:00

had a gathering session with girlfriends on the evening.
gym-ing, dinner then lepaks.
huda make me disturbed some people abt my new no.
and ader binget seh. heh.
main-main la syg =]

budak ni prasann cuuute tau.
she camwhore in my camera for like 2947355873589 times,
but im too lazy to upload all cus my comp will get the virus. HAHA!!

2008-04-18T19:22:00.005+08:00

firstly, Happy Birthday Mom :DD
though im always busy with work & stuffs,
i will never ever forget that your birthday is today.
sweet kan anak dier? HEHE.

secondly, ____________ is already intervwed by my mgr, Louis.
i cant wait for him to start work together with me.
He's soo gonna be with my 24/7 everyday.
and i dont care wether im gonna be called possesive or whatever.
i just like him like ALOT ok!
and he dont seem to mind if he gets to work with me like every other day too :D

ok, dearest____________,
i know you'll be so kembang & honored once u read this
kan kan kan? HEHE:D

HAHA. omg. im so over the moon.
happy npk! happy npk!

so thats 2 good & happy news for me.
ok, im going off now, to celebrate mom's birthday.

2008-04-18T01:56:00.010+08:00
i seriously think theres a silent war between me & some girls at my work place.
they fooled around, got scolded & complained,
and now one of them is creating nuisance by not coming to work.
and guess what?
me & aswan had to stay on from 11pm to 4+pm the next day just to cover up her stupid shift.
and im having work at 11pm the next night too!

does she think she's the only one who's been tired when she herself has only just started work?
well, i haven been getting any off days for the past 1week+
who's more tired than who?

serious shit, im so fucked up.
i wont be surprised if she & her fren will be terminated,
and i wont even bother to stood up for her like i did before.
its no use for me to stood up for her,
im the one getting the blame in the end.
fuckerrrr.
and what did she do to help?
just gone MIA-ing
thankss ehh!

thats one the reason why i just cant get along with all these girly girls.
and i rather be friends with guys whos a gay than a bitch.
at least those guys can be straightforward to me when they dislikes something
unlike these girls.

sheesh!

i can be nice to you, but if you did these stupid dumb stuffs,
i swear i wont ever trust you again.

no matter how angry i am,
i cant wait to meet ____________ tmr evening!
sungguh excited!!

2008-04-16T20:03:00.002+08:00
im tired.
i dont even have time to go out and meet __________
since like 3days ago.

snd im sorry, for controlling and making decision for you each time.
too dominating, yes i am.
i never had any intention to control you.
i thought its for your own good.
get back to me soon.

i miss you, boy. :(

2008-04-15T20:01:00.009+08:00
anwar told me to watch this video clip.
he& khidhir & friends went for the audition of Anugerah Band.
dalam diam2 anwar tk nak blang seh dier pegi audition.

such a bad boy-friend. HAH.

well, what can i say?
at least they had the guts to go and show some talents! (:

2008-04-15T14:49:00.008+08:00
lepaking session after work cause we had no plans after the day.
so here it is.
the silly & crappy pics we took.
K wat! :D

at the end of the day, this is how our face look like.
muke semue tk mandi.

2008-04-14T19:15:00.006+08:00
had a superr looong day again.
went out to meet ______ ydae.
walked around tamp till its time for me to go off work.
then went to work.
aswan said that i snored while sleeping.
maybe im just too tired.

after that, went cdc to had my revn with aki & faris & redzuan.
oh & guess what?
i nearly fall during my U-turn
so now, i think im losing confidence in TP.
maybe taking revn too much doesnt helps either.
-.-"

then me& the brotherlurps went ktv-ed.
thanks dudes for releasing those stress & tensions(=
we're crapping and anyhow singing all those songs all the way. hah.
and dear faris, tkmo emo lagik la.
u will find better girl soon ok!

ok. im too lazy to elaborate more.
heres the pics.

2008-04-12T00:27:00.005+08:00
im tired.
i really am.

i get cranky at times even at the slightest thing.
like _________ being so fickle-minded.
and i snapped at him.

even at a poor kitten i stared fiercely
when its following me aft i returned from work daily.

know why?
im not having any off days at work until like next sat.

with my TP coming,
having revision often,
work interviews im going to every morng,
hw am i supposed to like have the time with friends & family,
or even with myself alone?

stupid.

ok.
so for today, i missed my first interview and therefore i went for another intervw at bugis.
i declined their offer as its a dumb post
which im not interested in.

after that,
was walking like a loner until i bumped into Aswan, Izwan & Along,
and i ended up spending the whole day with them until 6pm when i have to go to stupid work cause nobody can replace me.

too bad im unable to meet NJ & Zamir who's already on the way cause of my work.
so sorry i cant spend times with you people.
and yeah, I miss NJ alot.
its been like super duper long since we catch up on life abt missioning & others.
cant wait to meet this coming wed when we gonna have prac together! :D

and as for work, Faz was being irritatingly yet funny at the same time.
i always need to rush off quickly to the toilet
as Faz kept making laugh till like i feel like pee-ing.
-______________-

tomorrow morng having another revision.
then working again with silly Faz.
penat lagik la aku.

dear God,
please give me energy for me to go on at least till like 24th april.
please.

2008-04-08T11:01:00.011+08:00

see that pundek face?
itu lah brotherlurp gua.
i forget to wish him yesterday,
so here it is,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, AKI !! :D

rmb when we took our prac together and u fall down during your e-brake.
i can hardly stop myself frm laughing when i think abt it.

lepak at kopitiam
which seems like you're the one talking the whole time and im like practically slping throughout the whole time.

faris & you selit through the theory classes together with me

and we went to pasar malam just to eat lekor
and duduk di tepi longkang.

how romantic.

ok, i hope you will pass your TP this time
together2 with me
then we can bring faris go riding all the way :D

Love you!

ok im being so gay.

2008-04-05T00:18:00.005+08:00
i dont know why.

lately my attitude is hard to control.
i get full mixed of emotions at different times,
such as being easily angry even though i know its not nessasary to blamed others.

i get sad whenever im alone,
and at time i do feel unconnected with other people around me,
even with my own self.

what is happening to me?

i know blogging is bad cus it isnt private
and unknown visitors will know what im going through,
but i guess this is the only way i could let out my feeling,
though it isnt 100%.

all ive been doing is locking myself in the room,
wishing nobody would just bug me right now.

im sick and tired of friends kept texting and calling me everyday
to ask me out
shopping, drinking, hangouts
and enjoy myself like im not in any guilt position.
i just wanna stay away from all these right now.

so please.

but in fact,
i do wish someone could be there for me
to help me get through these hard times im facing right now.

2008-04-04T07:00:00.005+08:00
dad phone me up, asking me hows my results.
& i told him the truth.
he still try being calm and told me, "it okay, we'll discuss about this later."
but that later is not yet to be.

when mom returned home from work last evening,
she scolded me, "my own daughter didnt even tell me that her result are out.
if i hadnt knew it from the other party, i would never knew about it at all."

she even bought me a new Sony Ericsson Hp since im a big fan of SE.
but my ego was just too big for me to accept it.

at first i was mad.
*cursed that aunty who's being such a busybody poking her nose into other people's affair when her daughter herself is not even taking higher nitec.*

then,
i was devastated.
esp when mom made that rude remarks saying, "now, you go planned your own future yourself."

it really hurts alot to hear that from my own mother.
i thought parents are supposed to give me encouragement
but why isnt mine ?
yet, my mom is making it worst.

when i had enough of other hurtful comments she spit out,
i just shouted back at her, telling her its none of her business
and wishing her to go away.
then, i went off the house until now, whereby im at my workplace.

i tried contacting most of my friends.
i knew some are busy,
but cant they even spend a little time to let me confide in them?

dad hadnt had the chance to see me the whole day either.
sigh.

i know.
i feel guilty having to shout all those to her.
i regret not studying hard enough throughout this 2years.
ive been playful and all i cared about is enjoy life.
i am remorse about everything.

Im still confused right now.
i dont know what i should do after this.
im scared of my future.
and now is the time whereby i really need my elderly the most
to let me stood firm on the ground.

tears are swelling up in my eyes whenever i think about this.

I'm So Sorry, dearest Mom&Dad
for bringing you down all these while.

2008-04-02T09:15:00.005+08:00
and fuck.

just when i thought things are going very well for me,
some shits starts to coming out.

i hate work.

i hate my results.

most of all, i hate the facts that i DID TRY HARD, VERY HARD for the final semester
but yet, i still got worse than before.
ITS NOT FAIR. its really not.

i hate everything.

='(

2008-04-01T02:26:00.013+08:00

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2008-04-01T01:41:00.007+08:00
hello blogger.
pls tell me i have no eyebags
i have not been getting enough rest lately.

and dear pair of eyes,
pls dont let your dark circles and baggies come out.
pls dont
=(

Saturday.

punat

apek faces.

handsome Samad, hot didi, rita triple punat, said bandan

gorgoues rita & sweet gowri

went to Ambika's Birthday party whom is Amrita's Sis.
had many fun fun there.
and i learned Banghra, Punjabi and other dancing together with the other guys n girls there.
maybe i should soon have an Indian boyfriend. HAH. laugh ah.
the food is delicious and i esp love the mango desert. *yums*

went back just to miss the mrt by few mins, and i had to take bus home.

Sunday

k. so i had like a loooooong day last night.
went madr early in the morn,
had road revn in the aftnn,
gym-ing with Huda in the evening,
last minute work to cover up a colleague
and finally went back home this morng.

its been like more than 24hrs since ive got my beauty sleep.

and of course, i slept like a piggy
which tired&sleepy people wouldnt?

i got awake by __________'s call.
and the person was like asking me "asal suare mcm gitu?"
suare gini sek perr !

and i received like many many missed calls & msges.
awww, you people must have missed me that much,
thats y right !

k lame.

and yeah, had an impromptu meetup for only a while with __________.

overall, im happy cus i get to see his batang hidung.
(=

ok, im like bored.
can someone like entertain me right now?

*gym gym gym, im so in need with you baby!*

2008-03-29T10:32:00.004+08:00
i had a great fun time at work today.
was surprised to see ct2 gang.

aswan, zamir, izwan, jun, along & his fren came along and slacked there.

how sweet of the boys to lepaks at the outlet.

we camwhore here and there,
gossip & jokes & more gossips
and of course, me & along kept on quarrelling abt *ehem*. hah.
ct2 rocks la seyy!

Biler siaaa we gonna hang out again nyah?!

OH, and as for today im going for a birthday party at toa payoh safra.
gonna meet up with my ITE punats after like 983755724015 months since ive met them.
ok ni bedek.

surely will be a hell of a time :D

2008-03-27T13:28:00.003+08:00
Just when I thought of finding love,

looking at my girlfriends crying over guys with no brains

is enough for me to think twice about being in a relationship.

Guys.

I wonder where they misplaced their brains.

Serious shit,

I won't be surprised if I turn crooked one day.

Because all the good men are either gay, broke, or dead.

It's suppose to be "all the good men are gay, broke or married".

But I don't agree because guys do cheat on their wives even when they're married.

Hah.

C'mon guys,

please don't come argueing about what I just typed.

Admit that one is not enough.

People, do treasure the ones around you.

You never know when they will leave & be gone forever.

2008-03-27T03:20:00.021+08:00

sheeshaaaa-ing with the girls.

AAAAH yes.
i planned of having a girls outing with my old mates today, but most of them couldnt come so left we me, aza & sonam.
and we agreed to go sheesha.
after that, we to Zamzam restaurant to had our late dinner.
ok. here are the pics.

the beginning of our journey. i hadnt had enough rest and thats the reason of my mata steam.

stupid aza. ambik gambar aku candid rabak.

happy eh?

my big shit BULL.

see i told u she's a bull. smokes are cmg out all over her.

aza spoilt this pic. serious shit. it would have been nicer she's not scratching her head. tk glamour langsong.

the end of our journey. mate da tk steam.

YES, im missing these bacin faces of the ppl behind, including SJ too who's not in the pic.
KWN KWN BILE MAU JUMPE?!

NURUL IS MISSING HER FRIENDS.

I got this crazy feeling
Deep inside.
When you called and asked to see me
Tomorrow night.
I'm not a mind reader,
But I'm reading the signs.
That you can't wait
To see me again.

- && i can't wait to see you again-

2008-03-26T03:52:00.002+08:00
yes, its been about K ive been dreaming about often.
weird as it is.
the fact that K & i had never contacted each other ever since ... like almost 2yrs ago?
a close friend told me, maybe im missing him
NO WAY.
or maybe ive been thinking about him always.
its a NONO too.

im happy with the way things are right now.
me flirting w other guys.
and thinking abt the happy moments everytime.
how can i possibly be thinking about K at the same time as im having fun?
K and i have been uncontacted and we acted like strangers even if we were to see each other outside.
yes, funny.

maybe someday i would know what those repeated dreams abt K means.

2008-03-23T01:14:00.005+08:00
stuffs that im currently/supposed to be worried about :

1. ITE Results. i just hoped i wont fail any subj so that i wont have to stay back in sch for 6more freaking months.

2. JPAE Results. Im sorry to my parents who have been wanting me to go poly ever since.
I doubt that i definitely not gonna get through any of the courses in poly.
And so sorry to let both of you, esp dad feel down, soon.

3. TP. nervous shit! wish me luck for it soon okay.

4. Work. I heard rumors abt ct1 closing down soon in june. da kene campak lagik aku.

5. O levels. Im retaking it this yr and try my best again as ive definitely not gonna get to poly this yr.

6. Saving money for bike.

7. I in need of money!

8.That BOY!

9. Lastly, skinny skinny skinny! yes, im not gonna give up on it ! :D

2008-03-22T22:47:00.003+08:00
super fun day at work last night
the people from tt1, tt2, ct1 came to each other's outlet mcm happy geng gitu
first, izwan& zamir came down to ct1.
aswan went to tt1&tt2
izwan went to ct1 again
me&aswan went to tt2 again.
thats what we've been doing the whole night. hah!

so yeah, when me & aswan were looking at tt2 outlet from the viewing mall,
we get to see Zamir, Izwan, NJ & Firr
and suddenly im reminded how much i miss ct2 which had been closed down.
evern though all of us were looking at each other only thru glasses,
it still the feeling of togetherness that were there
am i right ?

oh, sorry to aswan
im unable to attend his bro's bbq pit
happy birthday to him okay?
&& i cant wait to meet those bunch crazy guys again next fri
gonna have loads of fun!
;D

boy oh boy,
this is wierd but ;
you're still the one in my mind now.

there he goes, there he goes again.
racing through my brain.

&i just can't explain,
this feeling anyway.

p/s: i'm not suppose to fall in love till next year,why did you have to come my way? (;

2008-03-20T16:20:00.003+08:00
your 20 miss calls on my phone,

sounds like a desperate cry of obsession,

your 100 msges to me are not worth it,

are they?

xXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxxXXxXXXxxxxXXXxxxXXXxxxxxXXxxxxxxXXXXxxxxxXXxxxxxxxxXxxxXxxXXxxXxXXXxXXxxXXxXXxx
im so pissed off with a certain someone.
kiwaaaak.
maner nyer jambu laa
padahal pakai gambar org lain menyamar diri sendiri.
taktau malu nyerrr!
wanna see her
go see her profile ; http://profiles.friendster.com/53907297

YUCKS!

2008-03-18T01:48:00.014+08:00
ive just came back from KL.
it was fun, but its HOT !
i hate the weather.

k. sorry to those ive not informed.
buatkan korg risau ajerrr.
im lazy to type abt the trip.
all i know is that, im happy i finally get to satisfy my durians craavinggss! :D

my cousin &siblings ride on it, which i dont, not because im scared BUT im having headache.

double vision?

& we're all happy happy together, well except for my sis who's taking this.

i think ive consumed many mant fatty foods at KL.
yucks.
I WANNA GO GYM!
company, anyone?

on the way down,
i saw you and you save me from myself,
and i wont forget the way you love me....

2008-03-13T00:15:00.008+08:00
its over !
exams are over.
school is over.
im no longer schooling anymore.
woohoooo!

but yes, the saddest part is when all of us had to part with each other.
good bye people i guess the next time we'll meet is during the graduation day.
aaah yes.
so just now, we had our very last famous dish between our group; thousand island chicken rice
then we had our very last UNO games.
then we had our very last walk in the school.
sheesh.
im gonna miss that place which brings alot of memories,
through our ups & downs.

k, im being too emo.
readers are gonna laugh like now.
k bye.
HAPPY LONGGGG HOLIDAYS BAYBEH !

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You are Catwoman. Intelligent, Fast and Creative. In real life, you always use your inner power to help others. Let us say, you are not always use your power to fight for the right things but also use your inner power. Intelligent and creative are two best traits of you. Of course, your friends love to be around you since you are dependable.

I WANNA BE A CATWOMAN !! MEEEOWWW !

2008-03-10T00:01:00.004+08:00
you kept coming back to my life
not once, not twice,
but over & over again.

no matter how much this thing we've sort it through,
yet, its happening always
sometimes i feel like leaving you alone
but a part of me still likes having you around

and its making me confused more than ever right now.

k
menses are so bloody right now,
im having moodswings out of no reasons,
papers will be tomorrow,
yet no enough revision is done.

stop messing around boy,
better think of your future,
better make some good plans boy.........

NURUL IS HAVING MORE MIXED FEELINGS.

2008-03-08T04:17:00.003+08:00
and i just realised something.
nothing else in this world matters more than my own friends & family.
and love?
lets just say, there isnt a need for it now
cause im loving my people around me!(=

2008-03-08T01:29:00.036+08:00
the day was spent studying at Payar Lebar with Said, Rita & Fedah.
and we're like crapping more than studying.
padahal lagi 2 hari da exams sioooool.
this are some silly & mepeksss stuff that we did.

after that went to tamp, and had an impromptu meetup with Sonam & Syaza.
both of them are sooo sweeet to me!
sonam bought me a milkshake, and syaza surprise me with a birthday cake she had made that aftnn.
so then we camwhored again.
syaza took every candid shots that she can
geram ajerrr. haha!

haha! look at sonam's face. muke steam sakk!

and lastly, when i got home just now, i got another surprised.
my sis & bro bought me a birthday card, signed with ther initial below.
how sweeet!

anyway, thanks to all of those who made my day happy.
thanks to those who wished me too!

2008-03-07T00:28:00.014+08:00

ive dumped and left that boy way way behind on my birthday.
how cool is that?
well, he isnt worth to be thinking abt anyway.
im better off without a jerk. oh well.
aku ni da stress pasal exams.
buang mase jer nak stress pasal benda lain.

ohk. so, im 19, blah blah blah.
so what?
aku masih teenager per!
aku maseh awet muda ah eh!
k prasan.

so yes, what am i gonna do now?
this is my mission:
SKINNY!
fairer& whiter cause im becoming darker since motor prac taken over my life.
pass my TP asap.
get $$$ so as to buy bike.
make my hair grow fast and long as possible so i can half-curl.
SKINNY
SKINNY
SKINNY
last but not least, SKINNY SKINNY SKINNY!
i know ive been saying skinny countless times.
i wanna be skinny.
skinny is my top priority in my list right now.
by hook or by crook i wanna be skinny
skinny as fuck!

k im off to study again.
tmr my plan is?
study again.
this is like the BEST birthday everrrr.
dumping a guy & study like a nerd
baik ar nurul.

k bye

PS: An was the first to wish me sehh! thank you sweets. u light up my boring mood. hah!

2008-03-04T22:04:00.004+08:00
its been busy, with exams just around the corner.
we dont even have the time to meet up yet,
promise to meet once im done & over with my papers, will you?
oh boyy!
can't wait too long to see you!

im missing you, terribly!

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
Yang memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yg ku hela kau selalu ada

k, im off to study, study, study.
what was i doing here anyway?